My Psyche Is Fucked Up

By Donzell Taylor

 

My psyche is fucked up

Ever since that night

Sippin slowy on that bottle

Filled with an empty abyss

 

now that im full off that bottle

unlike you who’s full of empathy

theres blood on my right shoulder

where my conscience used to reside

 

ive been full off this bottle for so long

that most often emotions just feel awkward

and when conscious comes back I take another shot

 

My psyche is fucked up

Ever since that night

Sippin slowy on that bottle

Filled with an empty abyss

 

I might have an addiction to the abyss

If I try to fill my heart

That guy on the left

Shows me my conscious dead body

And points to the whole in his chest

And says I could end up like this

 

But I’m drinking that bottle

I don’t realize im fucked up

Worried about breakin a heart that I don’t use

But I rather it not work because of me than because of you

Atleast im in control now

 

But I still can’t control how

Uncomfortable it feels

when I start to feel some empathy

speakin to that common sense in me

 

I put the bottle down

But im goin into withdrawl

Without the abyss im no longer safe

And im vunnerable in your open space

The balls in your court and idk whats gonna happen

I hope I don’t have regrets and then get I start relapsin